#sorryivebeengon

Its been e.i.g.h.t. months.
That's a long t i m e. I need to say sorry to myself.

Life has changed in the past e i g h t months. My life is still a roller-coaster. My hands are in the air and i'm just going with the wind.

I'm going to school full time. Yes: I am a full time student. Its WONDERFUL. I love waking up and getting ready in the morning ( besides deciding what to wear) and going to class.

I LOVE LEARNING 

its the best feeling in the world... knowing that I am making a difference in my own life and I will be forever grateful for the experiences I am experiencing.

tata for now.
Cara

im in love.

I think I found what I LOVE to do. I am in love with making cakes. Yes, I realize I'm not the best. But, I can become the best. It's like a blank canvas for me. I start from nothing.. seriously nothing at all. and at the end I get to see the master piece that took me somewhere from an hour to about 6 hours. Here are just a couple of cakes I have done within the past year. I really want to start doing this out of my own place. I think I could. Well I know I could. I just need a huge freezer,  a huge oven, and a brand new kitchen aid... haha just kidding.. but really!

 

here it is! I love this!

Its a 4 layer chocolate-peanut butter and reeses cake.

can you say scrum de da licious??

 

 

tears in the eyes.

Last night I was trying to read a recipe (I made some very delish enchiladas)  (hotwiffypoints) and I was focusing way to much to look at that normal size paper. For the Past two weeks I have been struggling with seeing.... But I didn't want to face it. I don't always like wearing my glasses, but I know to function like a normal human and see the beauty of this earth I need to suck it up and just wear them. I may have had tears running down my face as I was driving to get the ingredients for dinner but its hard being 23 years young and having worse eyes than your great grandma. So today friends I am grateful for my cute, trendy, large looking ray bans that I rock everyday. here's to good eyes and an even better lovers day.

beehive.

have you ever felt like your brain was full of bees? I honestly feel like my brain is a beehive.
I wish it would slow down so I can catch up with life and get my thoughts and feelings in order.

- some may ask.. well why is this cara?  & you know what I have to say? its a big secret. :)

don't you all love secrets? hah. nah. its really not but I cant truly answer that. I think that's what im trying to figure out right now.

SUPRISE, SUPRISE- school is rough. its hard. its time consuming, its long hours on the computer and honestly im feeling smarter and smarter when I shut my computer and put my homework down for the night.

                                     ISNT THAT THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?

                                        I don't even have to have my glasses on to have this feeling anymore!

                   WOOOOAHHHHHHH. BOOOYAHHHHH PEOPLE.

Lock the door.

I have this one roommate who:

never locks the door as she leaves the house
never FULLY cleans the dishes ( seriously, she puts water on it and spins the water in the cup and waaaabammm. its clean) DRIVES ME NUTS.
never buys anything for the kitchen
never takes out the trash
never picks up after herself
and last but certainly not least.
always unplugs the lamp.

I want to say something, and I did about locking the door. I mean how hard is it to push the lock button... she doesn't even have to put a key in!

All I can say is she is in for a surprise when she is married and no one is there is pick up after her.

I feel like I am a mom. I now know how all moms must feel when the kids come in with snowy shoes and drags in the salt and leaves puddles of water in the kitchen, Or when the kids leave empty spice containers in the cupboard, never turns the lights off before going to bed, and more that I cant even begin to think about.

Life is great if this is the only thing I can complain about right?

on the bright side. tomorrow is day: Saturday 11 year: 2014 and guess what the means..
I Cara Andre'e Smith do not have to go into work tomorrow. I believe this is the first Saturday in about 6 months that I have not worked. I am so stoked!

New Year, New Me.

Its almost a New Year. OH how grateful I am to see the year switch from 2013 to 2014. I believe that 2014 will be my year. Everything good is going to happen to me. To be honest, I have no idea what is in store for me but you know when you just have a good feeling about something? Yes, I am having that feeling right now.

I have decided that I want to share my thoughts, trials, laughter, tears and such with you. (whoever you are) I might make you laugh, I might make you cry, You may disagree with what I have to say, But this New Year I have an opinion I will learn to speak my mind. I will do hard things.

xoxo
care.

everything happens for a reason.

I feel like blogging lets my mind be free and I can express my thoughts a lot better then expressing it in other ways. 

The past month I have had a lot of time to think about the past and by the past I really mean the past year. Its been a roller coaster, one where you scream the entire time. You know what I am talking about! 

July has been a refreshing month for me. I have been praying to find the right answers as to why I made some of the  decisions I made. During this time I felt like I was lost and no one understood where I was coming from. I felt like I was by myself. I don't think I really truly understood how prayer worked until now. Answers don't come right away, and sometimes that's the hardest thing. One thing I have learned is that no one is ever alone, answers do come, It may be months from when you were really expecting but they come when you are ready. My answer was always right in my face, I heard it daily from people who loved me and only wanted the best for me and my future, But I had to find it by myself and I did. 

People always say. everything happens for a reason. To be honest I use to hate hearing that. But, it is so true. Things happen and from that you learn and grow.

I have to say how grateful I am for such a loving and caring family. Hold close to those around you that love you and ONLY want the best for you. I am one lucky lady. 

Just my thoughts for the evening. 

xoxo